It’s been some time since I’ve posted. I’ve been pretty busy with my crazy employment. Now that I’m employed again and getting a steady income, I hope I will be able to get back into the writing routine.
I will say my house is a mess. I really need to do a good cleaning with my free time this week. When I had free time, I didn’t want to clean because I was wallowing in a funk because I didn’t have any job prospects. I didn’t want to do a lot of anything other than search for jobs, which was depressing.
Getting into that funk mindset was debilitating for me because the more I focused on not having a job the more I felt I was a waste of space. I don’t like thinking that way but that’s where I was going. I would think those thoughts and it would sap all of my energy. If you add that the house was hot (summer in AZ in August tends to be that way) and all I was interested in on TV were the Law and Order franchise, well that wasn’t a good combination.
The only things that was a benefit to the ordeal was I didn’t have alcohol, but since I had no money to drink I’ll chalk it up to will power but I suspect being broke was a big factor to the effort.
I mentioned in a Facebook post that I found out I had to stay in my skin. That was a big takeaway for me. I have to constantly remind myself that I understand what is best for me. I cannot allow myself to be manipulated by outside individuals who don’t understand me. I don’t really want to elaborate more on this, because it will take volumes to write about it and rehashing everything would be upsetting.
Well, I’m looking forward to cleaning my place. My cat will be happy.